What can I say, blogging is cheap therapy! LOL I had a sort of epiphany today. You know when you’re talking to someone, telling them your thoughts about something and you have a split moment where that little voice inside your head says to you - “did you really just say that?”. You pause and feel like an idiot, but try to restate your thought in a different way that you hope makes more sense. And it doesn’t. Because truly, you’re too caught up in spinning your own reality, that you don’t see what’s obvious to others around you. That was me today. And I hope I didn’t sound as immature and trite as I probably did. Fortunately, though, the person I was conversing with is older, wiser and kind. Very kind. He did not point out the obvious. He didn’t hit me over the head with it. He did state a few “truths” that I heard, but didn’t really HEAR until much later. It took them a bit to sink in. But when they did, there was my epiphany. Clear and yet familiar. I was wandering along a path that was familiar to me…and not really in a good way. So, I’m turning around and choosing a different path…one that has me more grounded and enjoying life and the experiences that come my way, today. Not trying to direct what I want to happen, especially when it comes to dealing with others. Grabbing hold of life, living in the moment, and working on my 100 Things. In fact, this wise friend of mine has offered me an opportunity to do one of them. I have enthusiastically agreed and look forward to it later this summer. I can’t share which one just yet as not all the pieces are in place yet, but as soon as I can, I will. Promise. Meanwhile, have fun guessing! LOL…
In other news, I started Mixed Martial Arts training tonight. I did pretty well for having never taken a formal martial arts class before. It’s a combination of Kickboxing (which I do know), Karate and Aikido. I loved it but look like a spaz trying to do the first 4 steps of Kata 1! Everyone is testing for the next level Friday night. I will go and see what it’s all about, but I have to know Kata 1 inside & out for rank and I doubt I will by Friday - not that anyone is expecting me to, since I just started today. (Though I know everything else) But I’ll get to experience it without pressure and be ready next month.
Adam is working on a project for Geography…converting an old Monopoly board into a new board game where you need to know facts about World War II to advance through and win the game. It’s kind of fun. We’ve re-papered the board, he has the squares all punched out and labeled, the box has been repainted and the game renamed. We have Army men for game pieces. Need to get more game pieces and/or decorations that cover the air and naval forces. He’s also compiling questions for the game…instead of Community Chest and Chance, they’ll be labeled Allied and Axis. Photos tomorrow - we had to use my camera for field measurements & site visit today.
Still writing and NOW I can read whatever I want! It was also liberating today to realize that I could go to the dojo after work, come home, shower, eat then….PLAY. Or READ, or help Adam with his project. But it was all up to me! No homework!! I got some things off my chest yesterday regarding the program I’m in at school…to an instructor as well as in an email to the program directors. For whatever it may be worth. I feel better and have gotten a new attitude towards school. I hate when you’re just doing whatever they say to get the piece of paper…aren’t they there to serve our needs, to make sure we learn the material we need to learn, to be able to USE our degrees for SOMETHING? I may be way off base, but was sick & tired of playing the game. So, I threw my glove down and walked off the field. So to speak.
Hey, I’m even going to get to bed on time tonight! So, I’m outta here peeps. I’ve missed y’all!!
Sh@ron